Fiction & Poetry
He said ‘tender’ today/in such a way/I thought/I’d definitely like him saying/dirty things to me
I always thought I’d get married in a white mekhla-sador, the paht soft and warming, so in cool weather please.
Waxing my body for the first time last year to have silky skin like the women on Veet’s box but ended up with rashes instead.
“Be yourself, Sarah. Awkward smiles, empty silences, weird laughter, and all. It’s just a part of being human. Loving someone physically is never not awkward. Even if it’s a monogamous relationship. It’s only the comfort of familiarity that makes you think otherwise.”
In my flesh, I must pass
for straight…
But in the digital world,
I can be me.
I’ve never known the answer to childhood questions…
It’s clear Ms. Nisha is not here to shame them or lecture them. She’s here to give them words when they have none.
I smell the judgement
and the disappointment
of my parents as I enter the hall;
it stinks of their silence on my sexuality.
Like some perverted Pavlovian desire,
the wafting smell of fresh soap
that fills up the air in the bath
has my pupils dilate when walking out.
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tender lips that had forgotten, momentarily, the taste of mother’s milk and couldn’t tell the silence of the womb from…