The I Column
Looking outside, seeing inside
I find that my own clothes are all just pieces of a larger archive I’m slowly constructing: an archive of the women I love, a half-hearted attempt at mimicking what I love.
September 20, 2023
To My 21-Year-Old Self
‘Is the future so dark?’ you might ask. I am here to tell you that it is not. As you begin your exploration into the world of queer theory and feminist theory, you will learn that the straightjacket version of sexuality cooked by our families was undercooked.
By Chand
August 25, 2023
Barabar Kha: Recipes of Transition
Through the rituals of cooking, prayers and sharing our complaints of menstruating, we came together to give space and hold space for each other.
By Afshan Mariam
July 5, 2023
Neither Madonna nor MILF
For me, pregnancy was a strange state of being so present and so aware of my body, while at the same time being separate from it. This experience really did a number on me during those nine months and during the postpartum period.
By Tena Pick
June 1, 2023
खेल के मैदान में क्या मैं “मर्द” हूँ?
पारंपरिक जेन्डर भूमिकाओं ने हमेशा ही खेलों के स्वरूप को प्रभावित किया है। यह सच है कि एक ऐसी जगह में, जो विशेष रूप से पुरुषों के लिए ही बनी थी, धीरे धीरे महिलाओं के लिए स्वीकार्यता आई है, लेकिन इस स्वीकार्यता ने औरतों को स्वतंत्र रूप से ख़ुद को स्थापित करने के लिए बहुत कम जगह दी है।
By Supriya Subramani
April 21, 2023
Lost and Found
From today’s vantage point I see that I missed an opportunity to use PT and sports in school as a way to get to know and move my body. This in turn held me back from viewing myself as a sexual being.
By Kajol Hinduja
April 6, 2023
Sex Question Mark
Looking back, it seems strange, almost sad that he couldn’t contain his anxiety, couldn’t bear the shame of what he did wrong. He must have skimmed over so much turmoil, that he couldn’t accept the reality of harming someone.
By Megha
March 1, 2023
Acting Like Myself
Wesley D’Souza recounts the time his school put up a production of The Pied Piper of Hamelin, his preparations for its audition, and how the process was intertwined with an exploration and acceptance of his sexuality.
By Wesley D'Souza
January 3, 2023
So what if I’m my own voyeur? — Connections and Disconnections with Desire(s)
Funnily enough, porn played a massive role in helping me articulate my queerness (I am pansexual) and my even queerer desires.
By Ankita Dhar Karmakar
Sunflowers on a Frosty Morning
A few days ago, in a telephonic conversation with my mother, I was made aware of the inadequacies of my…
By Neel
September 19, 2022
Of Identity and Belongings: The Gatekeeping within Queer Spaces
No matter how much I wanted to be a part of the rainbow, it felt like the rainbow wanted no part of me. It was an elite space for the exuberant über cool gays, with access, privilege and a vocabulary filled with jargon. I couldn’t even decide if I was ‘gay enough’, let alone deconstruct my experiences, having being brought up in a heteronormative culture.
By Shubhangi
September 1, 2022
Looking For Someone To Talk To
I would say that growing up in a small village would make it difficult to find love or companionship, but I have since moved to a city and found that it was difficult to find love there, too. It did not stop me from trying, though.
By Wesley D'Souza
April 1, 2022
Of filter coffee, marriage and mixed celebrations of sexuality
Marriage also feels complicated when one approaches it through the lens of feminism. Marriage throws in two people and often their families into a system designed to perpetuate patriarchy, subjugate women, and bind men and women (in heteronormative marriage) into strict roles in the marriage.
By Vani Viswanathan
On Looking for Love
I wanted to be one of those people who decide to never date again and actually follow through. Indeed, I decided that a lot. A resolution that was broken so many times that it became a running joke in my head.
By Wesley D'Souza
February 1, 2022
Dear Diary: The radically feminist creative journalling practice that nobody talks about
This article was originally published here. Even the Prime Minister cannot interfere with the baby’s bedtime. I pace in a…
By Sheena D'Lima