Fiction & Poetry
Do you know what it feels like to be seen? I also don’t know what it feels like to be properly heard, but that’s a question for another time.
The morning was heavy, laden with the weight of expectation, with the unsettling realisation that something was about to shift.
I always thought I’d get married in a white mekhla-sador, the paht soft and warming, so in cool weather please.
We carve strangers’ words onto our skin
like tattoos to be flaunted while hiding away
everything that we are from within.
हमें नहीं बनना महान
हमें इंसान ही रहने दो।
The bathroom stall becomes a sanctuary, a stage, a confession booth.
To be a gentle / friendship breaker for S. To be // a candle-lit confetti apology for S.
Days upon days rushed by, tatoh chiya, alu thukpa, chicken cowrie, and beer kept us warm during the rejections.
Why does the gap feel so wide no matter how much I explain, again and again, that I do not mean to hurt him… hurt any of them? I feel torn… but Amma and Appa need my help at home. Lockdown has been so damn hard.
I gargle away the itch in the tonsils accompanying this persistent flu.
I would once again be theirs, in memory, on the day my lover would die.
From silver screens to pages penned,
Our identities explored, where journeys never end.