{"id":9561,"date":"2016-08-02T11:05:28","date_gmt":"2016-08-02T05:35:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak?p=9561"},"modified":"2018-08-28T16:16:53","modified_gmt":"2018-08-28T10:46:53","slug":"voices-extra-large","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/voices-extra-large\/","title":{"rendered":"Extra Large"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>\u201c<em>Large will not fit you.<\/em>\u201d<\/p>\n<p>She is scoping me, up and down, eyes<\/p>\n<p>Flicking fast and darting away<\/p>\n<p>From the roundness of my breasts<\/p>\n<p>To the happy jiggle of my thighs.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><em>\u201cTry extra-large instead.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<p>The advice stings like a cut<\/p>\n<p>Dripping with salty sweat<\/p>\n<p>Burning with shame inside<\/p>\n<p>Because everything is too big.<\/p>\n<p>The jiggle is obscene.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>But in the mirror, critically<\/p>\n<p>Watching everything big,<\/p>\n<p>Large, extra large, massive,<\/p>\n<p>Assessing all that hugeness<\/p>\n<p>With blazing eyes and firm chin<\/p>\n<p>I find a clue.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Every day, I negotiate<\/p>\n<p>With the curves and valleys of<\/p>\n<p>My hips and breasts with clothes<\/p>\n<p>To minimize, exalt, prettify.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Little compromises. Choices<\/p>\n<p>Masquerading as facts.<\/p>\n<p>That will not suit.<\/p>\n<p>My body is a problem.<\/p>\n<p>This curve is too round.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Something oozes out of<\/p>\n<p>Every neglected, smoothed over<\/p>\n<p>Imperfection of my body today.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I am extra large, but my<\/p>\n<p>Definition is different.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Because after ages, I have<\/p>\n<p>Learned not to give a damn.<\/p>\n<p>My extra largeness is<\/p>\n<p>Finally escaping from the pores<\/p>\n<p>Of my tanned, brown skin.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>My extra largeness is new found.<\/p>\n<p>It is in the essence that runs through<\/p>\n<p>My veins.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Go ahead, call me extra large.<\/p>\n<p>This time I will smile.<\/p>\n<p>It does not sting anymore.<\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em><span style=\"font-size: 12px;\">Cover image courtesy\u00a0sekihan (CC BY-NC 2.0)<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cLarge will not fit you.\u201d \/ She is scoping me, up and down, eyes \/ Flicking fast and darting away \/ From the roundness of my breasts \/ To the happy jiggle of my thighs.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":193,"featured_media":9564,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[775,1,8],"tags":[779,503,1766,692,1760,11,788],"class_list":{"0":"post-9561","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-attire-sexuality","8":"category-categories","9":"category-voices","10":"tag-attire-and-sexuality","11":"tag-body-image","12":"tag-body-size","13":"tag-clothing","14":"tag-poem","15":"tag-poetry","16":"tag-shopping"},"menu_order":0,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9561","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/193"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=9561"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9561\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":24093,"href":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9561\/revisions\/24093"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/9564"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=9561"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=9561"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tarshi.net\/inplainspeak\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=9561"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}